I dreamt about Pedro Pascal again but this time I was pining for his attention. We aren't together in this dream but we kind of know of each other. We're at a premiere and I was excited to see him but he ended bringing a date along. I wasn't sure if they were together but they sure seemed chummy. I was pretty bummed to see that since I was dressed real pretty and got my makeup how I liked. I felt pretty. But when I saw her, I didn't feel good enough anymore. It's not her fault either. She was a very sweet and open woman. She spoke with some European accent. Brown hair and eyes and an olive toned skin. She's built like a model and spoke to me like we were friends. I couldn't be mad at her but I was envious. We were all at an after party, and I noticed them sneaking away. My curiosity gets the best of me and I follow, just catching a glimpse of them up the stairs and locking themselves behind an empty bedroom. I swallow my bitter feelings and seat myself on a couch within the living room that's beneath the stairs. I lay down in order to regain some composure, closing my eyes and making myself look pretty in case Pedro stumbles upon me. (I've done this in the past. Making sure to place myself in situations that'll ensure I have a one-on-one with the person I like. I'll admit it's a bit devious but sometimes it works.) After awhile, I hear the door open upstairs and peek to see her quickly scurrying out of the room. She sees me and smiles, coming over to tell me what happened. She admits that she just slept with Pedro, saying it as if apologetic. Insinuating that she knew my feelings towards him and that it was common occurrence for her to do so as she repeats that, 'this is the last time'. I forced a smile, trying to hide my pain and resentment towards her and she rambles on about a different subject. There's a twinge of guilt inside me as we speak. I recognize her friendliness towards me, clearly oblivious to my hurt ego, but she speaks as if she actually likes me as if I'm one of the few people that she considers her friend. She hurriedly says goodbye when I warn her that I can hear Pedro about to leave the bedroom and then she exits the room–and probably the party. I see Pedro descend the stairs quickly trying to catch up to her but he barely catches the sight of her leaving through a door where on the other side the party continues. His shoulders slump in tired defeat, not wanting to chase after her. I look down with a sigh. All my conflicted and negative feelings eating away at me as I try to regain my composure once more. I don't even realize that he's noticed me, casting a curious gaze towards me, and debating whether to walk over.
This dream seems to touch on several themes related to self-worth, desire, and the complexities of competition in relationships. Let's break it down:
Pining for Attention: Your longing for Pedro Pascal's attention symbolizes a desire for validation and appreciation in your life. This iconic character can represent not just physical attraction but a deeper yearning for connection or recognition.
Self-Image and Confidence: The fact that you describe feeling "pretty" at the premiere but then feel inadequate when comparing yourself to the woman portrays a struggle with self-esteem. This may reflect real-life feelings of comparison, particularly in social settings or competitive environments. The dream suggests that while you may feel good about yourself, external circumstances or people can trigger insecurity.
Jealousy and Envy: The interaction with the woman highlights feelings of jealousy that can arise when someone else appears to possess what you desire. Her friendliness and openness evoke a sense of guilt in you, indicating an internal conflict between recognizing her positivity and grappling with your unfulfilled desires.
The Search for Acceptance: As you lay down on the couch to compose yourself and make yourself look pretty for Pedro, this represents the lengths you may go to in seeking validation or acceptance. It underscores a desire to be seen and admired, as well as the effort you put into presenting yourself to the world.
The Encounter with Reality: The moment the woman tells you she slept with Pedro and her nonchalant attitude may signify your fears about being sidelined in your pursuits. It sounds like you might struggle with feelings of being overlooked or not enough, and this scenario amplifies those sentiments.
Conflict of Emotions: The inner turmoil you feel when confronting both your attraction to Pedro and your interactions with the woman indicates the complexity of emotions surrounding desire, rivalry, and friendship. This clash might align with broader feelings in your life where you feel conflicted about your aspirations and the relationships you mindfully cultivate.
Pedro's Indecision: Pedro's interest in you, shown at the end of the dream, symbolizes hope or the possibility of connection that exists despite the chaotic feelings of jealousy and insecurity. His curiosity could represent the potential for new relationships or paths that might be awaiting you, even when circumstances seem discouraging.
Overall, this dream reflects universal feelings of desire, the quest for affirmation, and the vulnerability that accompanies wanting someone else's attention and affection. It suggests a reflection on your self-worth and the recognition that external validation can often be intertwined with deeper self-exploration and acceptance.